Whining

I get so stressed out sometimes. I freak out. I whine to God. I'm glad the Holy Spirit intercedes for us, but I'm quite certain God still recognizes the whining. This month I was doing that. I got all wrapped up in my own little world, and couldn't focus on bigger things. I pleaded with God for things to happen the way I want them to, in my time, in my way. And then, late at night, when I was really listening, I heard God tell me that I don't even know what I want. And I don't. But the implication in that was that God does (which I already knew). And he loves me, and will take care of me. He's got a plan for everything.

Seriously.

It's really easy to crack open the Bible to the proverbs and preach a little in no general direction. Last time I wrote I was learning about truth sharing. What I didn't tell you is how I was planning to respond to what I was reading. Why not? Easy. I was nervous. And I wanted to reserve the ability to back out, I suppose. I'm sure everyone's expereienced what I have: relationships that burn a little. Sometimes you get to a point at which it's easier to let go, stop talking. Well I am no stranger to these relationships, certainly. And since I live in the land of What People Think, I'm constantly aware of the image I put out, specifically to those people. Well, my friends, as it turns out, grooming my own personal image to make myself look better to the people I'm afraid of is lying. And God's been nudging me to fix it for years. So last week, I finally obeyed what I knew God wanted me to do a long time ago. I started being real in my relationships with those people again. Simple truthsharing. We intentionally went out and talked. And we'll do it again! And this big world is all the less lonely.